I want to cut my wrists. I've been cutting my legs, but its nowhere NEAR as satisfying as my arms. I hate being an adult, and having responsibilities, and having to worry about everything. I am so amazed that I've made it this far in life; I don't think I ever thought I'd be here in a million years. but then, I don't even know why the fuck I am here. it all feels fucking pointless. useless. hopeless. waste of fucking time. why am I fucking here???? I haven't been "happy" in years; what the fuck am I doing? what the fuck is wrong with me?? I feel like I'm at the point where I need serious professional help, but as an adult I can't afford it and I sure as fuck can't afford to take the time off from work, and life, that would be necessary for me to get the help I need. I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK TO DO ANYMORE!!!!!!
8:48 p.m. - 2012-01-01
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